My New Hobby - Playing Golf

Here we are. This is my new addicted hobby. All this while I always felt that the person who spent so much of their time to hit the small ball and put it to the hole is such of waste of their time. This is my perception until one came. My ex Bos had asked all of his employee to gather together at driving range for golf session with pro. Me too. The pro teach me how to swing, how to get the feel of swing and other basic technics on golf. Instantly, after that I felt that I'm already in love with this game.

I studied about golf, get to know more detail about golf from the latest iron, driver, wood & etc...I can't wait anymore. With one weekend, I drive myself to Isetan KLCC and bought new set of golf, from bag to iron, all together is Callaway except putter. I take Oddysey for my first one.

Occasionally, together with my colleague we had play golf during our boring day at work. Normally we did this when our bos is not in town. Yeahhhhh...We seldom play golf on the weekend because we believe that the golf is part of the work routine, and we want reserve our weekend with the love one. But when the bosses is calling, no weekend for the family, sometime I have to wakeup as early as 5 am to catch up the tee off at 7am. My first green is at The Mines Sri Kembangan Golf Club. Yeah...of course as a beginner, my swing is terrible, I had improvised from time to time. Currently, my swing is much better and I at par at other 2 or 3 year player. Not bad ahhhh...

To make sure how serious I am with golf, I bought another set, but this set was for me when i'm turn to pro in the future. White color and so clean. Yeah.....

Cuti Cuti di PD

Hehe...gambar gambar yang ku sempat ambil bila membawa isteri tercinta bercuti ke PD. Sebenarnya aku tidak berapa suka berjalan jalan ke pantai, pulau dan keadaan yang sewaktu dgnnya. Aku lebih suka berjalan ke bandar bandar sebab aku suka melihat bangunan dan structure. Bila wife ajak bercuti ke PD, aku tanpa byk soal terus je setuju. Yelah, org tgh mengandungkan, kenalah jaga hati dan perasaan dia. Aku perlu berkorban dan bertolak ansur.

Banyak benda yang berlaku semasa bercuti ini. Ianya bermula dari Shah Alam dan aku mengambil jalan lama melalui banting, terus ke nilai dan seremban dan PD. Kami bermalam satu malam di PD dan esoknya bertolak ke Melaka. dari Melaka terus balik ke Shah Alam melalui Plus highway.

Walaupun cuti-cuti ni hanya dua hari, tapi aku puas sebab dpt membawa isteri tercinta ke tempat yang dia nak pergi. Hehe...

IEM Course

BEM rule now is very stringent. In order to pursue my PE, they already come with circulation mentioned that every graduate engineer who register before 2005, they have to undergone several compulsory course. These course consist of :-

i. Engineer Management & Practice
ii. Safety & Health
iii. Engineer Code of Ethics

Therefore, on 22 of Feb till 24 Feb 2010 i had have attend those courses at IEM training center in PJ. The photo attached is all the participants involved together with our course lecturer.

Raya 2009

Gambar gambar raya 2009. Raya pertama aku bersama Salahuddin dan isteri. Life seem completed.

Berbuka Puasa

Gambar gambar berbuka puasa kat Big Plate. Lepas tu kita org gi shopping kat The Curve. I bought a Ring for my wife. Specially becuse of his struggle to deliver my son.

Raya 2009

Gambar gambar hari raya 2009. Salahuddin dah semakin besar.

Salahuddin Rafiqin yang Besar

Gambar - gambar ini diambil pada hari Aqiqah Salahuddin. Sekarang usia dia dah empat bulan. Semakin besar dan lasak. Kekadangn tak tahan aku dgn perangai dia, tapi bila difikirakan kembali, buat aku gembira pulak bila tgk karenah dia.

Pada hari Aqiqah ini, aku melihat isteriku begitu excited sekali. Kalau boleh hampir kesemua kawan kawan dia nak dijemput menghadiri majlis ini. Aku gembira bila melihat isteriku gembira. Anakku sudah semakin sihat dan membesar dengan sempurna.

Untuk majlis ini, Aqiqahnya ialah 2 ekor kambing jantan yang sihat. Aku menyerahkan semua urusan itu kepada ibu mertuaku. Aku hanya menghulurkan duit saja untuk segala urusan itu.

Bulan yang pertama adalah bulan yang tough untuk aku dan isteri. Wife aku terpaksa bangun every 3 hours untuk pump susu supaya anak aku dapat menyusu dengan sempurna. Aku juga terpaksa bangun sekali untuk membantu. Setiap 2 hari selepas aku balik dari kerja, kami akan pergi ke Hospital Putrajaya untuk menghantar bekalan susu kepada Salahuddin. Aku melihat dalam freezer di NICU, bekalan Salahuddin yang paling banyak sekali. Anak aku masih dalam Incubator. Dia hanya mampu minum dgn menggunakan tiup sebab terlalu kecil dan lemah untuk menyedut susu. Bila melihat perkembangan yang positive dari Salahuddin, aku dan isteri semakin bersemangat untuk menghantar susu lagi dan lagi supaya Salahuddin dapat membesar dgn sempurna.

Wife aku terpaksa ambik unpaid leave bulan untuk menjaga Salahuddin. Anakku terlalu kecik dan agak berisiko jika terus dihantar kerumah org atau taska sebab premature baby perlukan special attention. Satu lagi pengorbanan isteriku yang membuatkan aku betul-betul terharu.

Kelahiran Anak Ku

Anak ku selamat dilahirkan pada pukul 1 ptg pada 10.04.2009 di hospital Putrajaya. Hari jumaat harinya. Setelah berbincang dgn isteriku 3 bulan sebelum kelahiranya, kami bersetuju nntuk menamakan anak kami dgn nama SALAHUDDIN RAFIQIN. Beratnya 1.3kg dan 32 minggu saja. Jadinya anak ku kena masuk NICU wad selama 2 minggu sehingga beratnya 1.8kg baru dibenarkan keluar.

Sebelum kelahirannya, isteriku telah kena tahan di wad hospital putrajaya selama 2 minggu kerana tekanan darah isteriku tinggi. Aku sendiri melihat bagaimana isteriku bengkak kaki disana sini dan ini menjadikan aku sedih dan pasrah. Jika aku terpaksa berkorban masa dan tenaga, isteriku berkorban lebih dari itu. Ini menjadikan aku sgt sgt insaf dan amat berterima kasih padanya.

Malam sebelum isteriku hendak dioperate, doktor telah menasihatinya supaya berpuasa. Aku memang nervous pada waktu itu dan hanya berserah pada Ilahi dan harus kuat untuk menghadapi segala kemungkinan. Ibu mertua ku sudah ada dirumah ku. Kami sama sama memanjatkan doa kehadrat Ilahi. Isteriku terpaksa dioperate kerana denyutan jantung anak ku tidak berapa stabil. Aku dan ibu mertuaku memanjatkan doa tidak putus-putus supaya segalanya akan berakhir dengan baik. Jam 11 lebih, nurse telah masuk ke bilik untuk menyedia keperluan isteriku sebelum pembedahan bermula.

Aku sempat mencium dahi isteriku sebelum dia dibawa ke operation theatre. Begitu juga dgn ibu mertua ku. Aku telah maafkan dan halalkan segala yang isteriku lakukan.Jika aku menderita dan sedih, aku rasa isteriku lebih lagi. Besar sungguh pengorbanan dia terhadap lelaki yang bergelar suaminya ini.

Pukul 2 lebih kurang, anak ku selamat dilahirkan.Segalanya berakhir dgn baik. Alhamdulillah.

Selamat Pengantin Baru

Segala penat telah pun berlalu. Walaupun pada ketika ianya bermula, aku menghadapi keadaan yang sangat tertekan kerana pelbagai masalah yang timbul, dari masalah ibu dan ayahku, makcik ku yang cuba mensabotaj majlis ku, hampir semua urusan aku terpaksa lakukan sendiri. Tetapi bila semuanya telah berjaya, aku puas dan gembira. Biarlah apa yang berlaku menjadi pengajaran yang amat berguna dalam hidup ke.Menjadikan aku lebih matang dan bersemangat. InsyaAllah.
Majlis di belah isteriku pada 10 Nov 2009 dan pada belah aku seminggu berselang. Majlis ku diadakan di Intekma Resort & Convention Centre Shah Alam. Disebabkan dewan yang tidak begitu besar, aku cuma jemput 250 org tetamu untuk meraikan majlis ku ini.

3 Tahun Yang Telah Berlalu

Pejam celik, pejam celik, semuanya telah hampir 3 tahun aku tidak menulis lagi di blog ini. Dalam tempoh itu, banyak betul benda yang berlaku tidak dapat aku nukilkan dan dikongsi bersama teman-teman yang lain. Benda - benda yang aku tertinggal akan aku cuba nukil kan kembali dari masa kesemasa. Semuanya itu adalah seperti berikut :-

i. Perkahwinan aku dgn seseorg yg sgt istimewa.
ii. Hobi terbaru aku iaitu bermain golf.
iii. Kenaikan pangkat.
iv. Isteriku mengandung
v. Kelahiran anak sulung ku.
vi. Perkembangan Salahuddin Rafiqin.
vii. Project PDB Bintulu.
viii. Perpindahan Department
ix. Rumah Baru.
x. Motor Baru.
xi. Labtop Baru.
xii. Rewards for myself for 2009 achievement.

Recent Visit To Vietnam

In The Weather

New employer, new working environment and of course, met new friends to develop more connection for later purposes.

Recently, my new employer had send me for BOSIET (Basic Offshore Safety Induction And Emergency Training). The training was held at MAS Academy at Kelana Jaya for three consecutive days. The class was attended by 40 personnel from various company with only one aim. We all too eager to put our feet on the surface of Platform.

Our Instructor is very good. Experience indeed. They teach us from basic life survival, for instance CPR (Cardio Pulmonary Respiratory) up to the extreme one, sea survival. And indeed, the challenging one is the sea survival.

During this module, they put us (four personnel at a time) in the Artificial Helicopter (AH), then they turn this AH up side down (inversion position), so all of us will sink and within one minute, we have to find way out or else, we will drowning.

For the first trial, I was failed to escape because I can’t avoid myself from panic and totally forget the way out. What I found is a big hole which all the student are not permitted to escape through this hole. I just swim to this hole and make myself floating.

Now I realized that when come to the real moment, it’s not an easy althought I can swim well, I remember very well every step of this evacuation process but while water start entering your breathing system, this evacuation step seems meaningless. But as usual, wise man always say, practice make perfect, therefore, from this bitter experience, I learn something. So for the second and third trial, I’ve done it extremely well. My instructor gave credit to me.

Last night, when I was begin to sleep, I can avoid myself from thinking the whole episode I’d been through today. How closes am I to death. What happen if I’m failed to find that big hole within one minute time frame? What will happen if I became body bag today? What will happen to me next? Where I am supposes to go? I can’t answer to all those question because obviously I’m not ready for the death. I’m not ready to leave all the wonderful things and stuff, pretty and nice people around me and my dream & ambitions. But one problem I have to faced, whether I like or not, ready or not ready, when the death call, nobody can escape.

Afraid To Loose You

"When I saw you I was afraid to meet you,
When I met you I was afraid to know you,
When I knew you I was afraid to love you,
Now I love you and I'm afraid to lose you!"

JIKA KAMU...

Jika kamu memancing ikan....
setelah ikan itu terlekat dimata kail hendaklah kamu mengambil terus ikan itu....
janganlah sesekali kamu lepaskan ia semula ke dalam air begitu sahaja....
kerana ia akan sakit oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kail mu dan mungkin akan menderita selagi ia masih hidup.

Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi banyak pengharapan kepada seseorang...
setelah ia mula menyayangimu hendaklah kamu menjaga hatinya....
janganlah sesekali kamu terus meninggalkannya begitu sahaja....
kerana dia akan terluka oleh kenangan bersamamu dan mungkin tidak dapat
melupakan segalanya selagi dia mengingatimu....

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada, jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh....
cukuplah sekadar keperluanmu.... Apabila sekali ia retak....
tentu sukar untuk kamu menampalnya semula.... akhirnya ia dibuang.... sedangkan jika kamu cuba membaikinya mungkin ia masih boleh digunakan lagi....

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang terima lah seadanya....
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa.... anggaplah dia manusia biasa. Apabila sekali dia melakukan kesilapan bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya....
akhirya kamu kecewa dan meninggalkannya. Sedangkan jika kamu memaafkannya boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan berterusan hingga keakhirnya....


Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi... yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu. Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat. Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba mencari makanan yang lain..
Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan. Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya. Kamu akan menyesal.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan... yang kamu pasti membawa kebaikan kepada dirimu. Menyayangimu. Mengasihimu. Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba membandingkannya dengan yang lain. Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan. Kelak, kamu kehilangannya dan kamu akan menyesal apabila dia beralih arah.

Woman

Sometimes I faced difficulty to understand about WOMAN. Maybe the story below will help me in order to get clear picture what's WOMAN is all about.

A French teacher was explaining to her class that in French, unlike English, nouns are designated as either masculine or feminine. 'House', for instance, is feminine; 'Pencil', however, is masculine.

A student asked, What gender is 'computer'? Instead of giving the answer, the teacher split the class into two groups, male and female, and asked them to decide for themselves whether computer should be a masculine or feminine noun. Each group was asked to give four reasons for their recommendation.

The men's group decided that computer should definitely be of the feminine gender (la computer), because:

1. No one but their creator understands their internal logic.

2. The language they use to communicate with other computers is incomprehensible to everyone else.

3. Even the smallest mistakes are stored in long term memory for possible later retrieval;

4. And ss soon as you make a commitment to one, you find yourself spending half your paycheck on accessories for it. (No chuckling guys ... this gets better!!!)

The women's group, however, concluded that computers should be masculine (le computer), because:

1. In order to do anything with them, you have to turn them on.

2. They have a lot of data but still can't think for themselves

3. They are supposed to help you solve problems, but half the time THEY are the problem;

4. And as soon as you commit to one, you realize that if you had waited a little longer, you could have gotten a better model... aaa...so?

the conclusion is?? male or female??? haduu..haruu camni...

Don't Cry

TALK TO ME SOFLY, THERE’S ARE SOMETHING IN YOUR EYE’S, DON’T HANG YOUR HEAD IN SORROW, AND PLEASE DON’T CRY, I KNOW HOW I FEEL INSIDE I’VE, I’VE BEEN BEFORE, SOMETHIN’S CHANGIN’ INSIDE YOU, AND DON’T YOU KNOW

DON’T YOU CRY TONIGHT, I STILL LOVE YOU BABY, DON’T YOU CRY TONIGHT, THERE’S HEAVEN ABOVE YOU BABY, AND DON’T YOU CRY TONIGHT

GIVE ME A WHISPER, AND GIVE ME A SIGH, GIVE ME A KISS BEFORE YOU TELL ME GOODBYE, DON’T TAKE IT SO HARD NOW, AND PLEASE DON’T TAKE IT SO BAD
I’LL STILL BE THINKING OF YOU, AND THE TIME WE HAD…BABY…

AND DON’T YOU CRY TONIGHT, DON’T YOU CRY TONIGHT, THERE’S HEAVEN ABOVE YOU BABY, AND DON’T YOU CRY TONIGHT

AND PLEASE REMEMBER THAT I NEVER LIED, AND PLEASE REMEMBER
HOW I FEEL INSIDE NOW HONEY, YOU GOTTA MAKE IT YOUR OWN WAY
BUT YOU’LL BE ALRIGHT NOW SUGAR, YOU’LL FEEL BETTER TOMORROW
COME THE MORNING LIGHT NOW BABY

AND DON’T YOU CRY TONIGHT, DON’T YOU CRY TONIGHT, DON’T YOU CRY TONIGHT
BABY MAYBE SOMEDAY, DON’T YOU CRY TONIGHT, DON’T YOU EVER CRY TONIGHT
DON’T YOU CRY TONIGHT…

Why Women Cry...

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?"
"Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said.His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you
never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no
reason?

" All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked,
"God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said:

" When I made the woman she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that any times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining..

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

To Someone Far Away

Hearts Could only Love For a While,
Feet Could only Walk For Some Mile,
Clothes Won't Forever in Style,
But Knowing You In My Life Is Forever Worthwhile.

Rage Of Angels

“…tell us of the secret hosts of evil, O’ Cimon. Their names may not be speak aloud lest they profane mortal lips, for they came out of unholy darkness and attacked the heavens, but they were driven away by the rage of angels…”

Field Of Innocence

I Still Remember The World, From The Eyes Of A Child, Slowly Those Feelings, Were Clouded By What I Know Now

Where Has My Heart Gone, An Uneven Trade For The Real World, How I, I Want To Go Back To, Believing In Everything And Knowing Nothing At All

I Still Remember The Sun, Always Warm On My Back, Somehow It Seems Colder Now, Where Has My Heart Gone, Trapped In The eyes Of A Stranger, How I, I Want To Go Back To, Believing In Everything

Where Has My Heart Gone, An Uneven Trade For The Real World, How I, I Want To Go Back To, Believing In Everything, Always

Where Has My Heart Gone, Trapped In The eyes Of A Stranger, How I, I Want To Go Back To, Believing In Everything...

Quote 1

Take My Eyes But Let Me See You,
Take My Mind But Let Me Think About You,
Take My Hand But Let Me Touch You…
But If You Want To Take My Heart…It's Already With You.

Depression Day

That day, while I’m on leaved, few miracles things happen to me. But I’m not in the mood to elaborate more further about that, what I’m going to write now is about my gf. Maybe God want to show something to me, just slightly when I arrived at KLIA, I can smell something wrong will happen, but as usually I just ignore that feeling and go ahead with my schedule which I’ve had prepared since I’m abroad.

Accidentally, this time she is on leave too, she wasn’t in town for a month and visiting her at her hometown wasn’t include in early schedule. So we just talk via phone and sometime much convenient for both of us to use SMS as our communication medium.

The problem start occurs when she felt that I’m not given much attention to her since I arrived home which I have to admit that. But as usual, everything run smoothly until at one point, she wrote an Email to express how depressed she was. I’d study that email for few days and stay keep calm. I don’t want to put more damage on our relationship. After a few days when by, she told me that she was regretted about that Email. I knew, it’s wasn’t her while she wrote those words. So I take an effort to study about MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder). After make some homework about MPD, I reach a conclusion that my gf has some MPD which is not in serious level. Maybe my perception is not 100% correct but I still have a ground to say so. Thus, I talk to her about this, I want her aware of this MPD and take necessary precaution before its become late.

As usual, she have point to denied it, but I also have my own point plus my study material which is I assume more concrete and firm. We keep arguing more and more which I felt very amusing. I can’t avoid myself from smiling all the time while we arguing about this issue, Hehe…this time, I outwitted her. Actually the whole idea of this MPD is genuinely came from me, I just want to create some kind of stories which I knew she will afraid of that. Hehe..I win this time…and I realised, she’s no longer depressed.

Proverb

While I was here, I've had an opportunity to met this guy. I called him Naz. He works as a System Engineer from one of our vendor . He's engaged and will marry soon. He's about to marry the daughter from a rich family.

For the sake of conversation, I teased him once, "you're very lucky guy, how you managed to get this girl?". And he smiled and replied instantly. "There is a English proverb that we have to always keep in our mind, If your father is not rich, that's because of your fate, but if your father in law is not rich, that's because of your stupidity". Emmm...that's very good proverb, and this is the first time I've heard about it.

I knew that I'm poor, neither my parent nor myself could afford to buy an imported car, therefore, in my understanding, we are poor. Nonetheless, I'm very happy with life now, my parent are doing well so far, my sister already settle down, so I think, there no reason for me chase a rich girl in order to have financial stability. He perhaps got lucky because he managed to get that package, but I have my own package and will pursue for it. The bottom line is that, I'm happy with my life now, with the people surround me and tried to live with that boundary. We have to be ourself and honest with ourself.Emmm...nice proverb anyway..maybe I can apply it when the time comes.

Half Glass

A few months back, I had an opportunity to make small chit chat with one of my foreign friends here, in Sudan. I called him Rod. His name was not related from his enjoyment to watch the trailer of Invisible Rod. Hehe…he is older than me, twice of my age but still energetic to work and as far as I know, he is one of the dedicated employees here.

Because of his dedication, I cannot avoid myself from curiosity, therefore I asked him a question." Are you happy to work and stay here?" I asked that question because from personel view, I didn't understand why at his age, he still have to work abroad and be far away from his family. What he'd told me after that amused me very much. He said, our life here is like a Half Glass of water. Its up to us how to see it, either half empty or half full. I totally stunned and instantly I understand what he trying to say. So from that day on, I always say to myself that I choose the second one. Full of positive thingking and perception of life. Maybe this is the secret of happy life. I'm no longer devastated here. Thanks Rod.

It's because I'm so ridiculously fabulous...

I’m feeling strangely upbeat today. I’ve been smiling all morning. Considering what my mood has been like over the past few days… I’m glad I’m back to being silly, and upbeat others.I could attribute this to any one of the following things:

1. I have a new Wallet

2. I washed my hair. Something about newly washed hair makes you feel clean all over, down to your soul.
I did something possibly very foolish last night, which might have just marked the beginnings of the genius idea for the book I’ve wanted to write.
I decided that every time I felt like I was going to think about the bad stuff, I was just going to stop everything and sing ‘Barbie Girl’ instead.
I realized that how unpredictable life is and how if someone had told me 6 months ago that all the shit that has happened…would happen… I would have pooped my pants. So really…there is no sense if me being all ‘woe is me’ about whatever because what the fuck do I really know?
They played ‘brass in pocket’ on the radio this morning on the drive to work.
Speaking of the drive to work… I took a different route. That’s huge. I’m such a creature of habit and routine… but something about this morning inspired me to drive a different way. Small changes.It finally makes sense to me. I’ve been suffering from ‘senioritis’… except, I’m not a senior. I haven’t wanted to do anything…I’ve been putting everything off from the simple things to the big things. God, I can’t remember the last time I went to the gym. With the grandparents coming this weekend to visit…I think I’ll be hitting the gym more. I have to at least make it look like I care…My hair is growing out. I’m really happy about this. Short hair was fun, and I needed that side of my personality to come out but something about longer hair calms me down. I need to be a bit more rational. And yes, hair can do that for me.So I’ve decided… again… that I’m going to go back to Grad School. The problem now is… I have no idea what I want to do. I like so many different things…I think the issue now is finding a program that I wont lose interest in. It will have to be very interdisciplinary. I’m interdisciplinary. I think I want to be an expert in something…I just don’t know what.I love writing. But do I really want to pursue an education in it?
I’m very interested in sex and gender studies, but I don’t want a feminist education. The idea of getting a Master’s in women’s studies bores me.I wish there was a program that blended cognitive science and neuro psychology with the philosophy of gender and sexuality. Maybe something that focused on helping intersexed children and promoting awareness. I love studying the why’s and how’s. The idea of counseling intrigues me. I could see myself as an educational counselor/advisor. I’ve done that sort of thing for undergrad students before…and I loved it. It’s the best way I utilize my empathetic side. I’m good at getting inside a person’s head and sorting stuff out.If my work could do something to change public policy and instigate social change and awareness…I think I’d die a happy woman. I suppose that would be my end goal.
To inspire change for the better… or just cause it. Oh.. and if that happened to result in superstardom for me.. well hey… I’ll take that too! Is there a Master’s program out there that can do that for me?I guess I still don’t know what I really want to be when I grow up. I just have to be creative. I have to be able to say what I think. I have to be able to want a lot of things and not have it hurt me.I’m tired of being told that it’s not possible. If it’s possible to fucking walk on the moon, it’s certainly possible for me to get everything I want. If it’s possible for assholes to walk among us and get everything they want because they don’t care about shit… then certainly the quality of the things people like me want would be much higher, and therefore much worthier of the time it takes to acquire them. I guess if I wanted shit… I could snap my fingers and get it like that. But I don’t want shit. I want magic. I want fireworks. I’m not an asshole. So I’m going to get it.

Hari-Hari Terakhir Di Sudan

With Rosli, Kat Dubai Airport.

With my friends, together with our big bos yg sgt baik hati dan byk beri tunjuk ajar. Just slightly before departure to Khartoum for final R&R.

Potong Daging

Haha..sapa sangka, pelajar yang paling takut dgn DARAH dalam Biology Class dah jadi pemotong daging yang handal kat Sudan ni..Aku pun tak percaya dgn apa yang aku buat ni, walau apa pun, aku dah ada kemajuan sikit dalam hal ni.. Gambar ni kitaorg ambik masa Raya Haji tempoh hari. Best giler...bergotong royong masak...sampai muka aku naik hitam kena asap..haha..

Inside Control Room

With Sudanis Process Engineer. Ibrahim nama mamat ni. Selalu buat aku pening kepala dgn idea and proposal yg logik but not practical to applied here. Nonetheless, he is one of the good engineer who always find a solution to solved any matters arrised.

The next pic was Kavi, my instrument technician. Very good and dedicated person. Always give a hand during inspection at field. Senang sekali bekerja dgn mamat dari Chennai India ni. Bila la agaknya aku dapat buat project kat sana..boleh jumpa dgn adik beradik Katrina Kaif..heheheee

Atas Flare

Gambar ni aku ambik masa buat Inspection Atas Flare. Dari sini aku dapat lihat hampir keseluruhan Plant ni. Memang besar giler Plant ni, naik letih lah jugak kalau jalan kaki tu..

Mamat sorang lagi ni Mario namanya. Kawan baik aku dari Philipine. Orgnya mmg baik dan aku senang sekali bekerja dgn dia. Muka "babyface" tapi umur 10 tahun lebih tua dari aku..Dia ajak aku berkunjung ke Metropolis, bercuti katanya. Aku pun tak sure lagi nak pergi ke tak..tgklah kalau free nanti.."Pagal Ko Sayong" haha...

Sambutan Maulidur Rasul

With my best friends , Wira, ada bakat jugak mamat ni.hehe...senasib dgn aku gak, masih bujang.

Wira di apit oleh Muthu dan Siva. Control Macho betul lah mamat yg posing kat tgh tu.

AJK memasak. Wan Rahman, Maarof dan Rosli. Posing beb, jgn tak posing

The Day When Minister Came

Last night I had another sleepless in Sudan. This scenario has been started since last week when I became the FOCAL person for Commssioning Team. Preparation for Minister visit today really make me headache, lot of things need to consider and recheck again and again, with the limitation of facilities, what can I do? . Arg...arg....this is really crazy. I have to faced the reality here, sometimes all the technical application can't be applied when political influence start to come in. It's very dificult to work with expatriate label in the "semi civilized" country like here.

With all these obstacles, I remember one thing, during my school days, my teacher always say "we do the best, let the GOD do the rest". Hopefully everything will run smoothly today.

To all my teachers, I loved you all. I'm one of your product.