Rage Of Angels

“…tell us of the secret hosts of evil, O’ Cimon. Their names may not be speak aloud lest they profane mortal lips, for they came out of unholy darkness and attacked the heavens, but they were driven away by the rage of angels…”

Field Of Innocence

I Still Remember The World, From The Eyes Of A Child, Slowly Those Feelings, Were Clouded By What I Know Now

Where Has My Heart Gone, An Uneven Trade For The Real World, How I, I Want To Go Back To, Believing In Everything And Knowing Nothing At All

I Still Remember The Sun, Always Warm On My Back, Somehow It Seems Colder Now, Where Has My Heart Gone, Trapped In The eyes Of A Stranger, How I, I Want To Go Back To, Believing In Everything

Where Has My Heart Gone, An Uneven Trade For The Real World, How I, I Want To Go Back To, Believing In Everything, Always

Where Has My Heart Gone, Trapped In The eyes Of A Stranger, How I, I Want To Go Back To, Believing In Everything...

Quote 1

Take My Eyes But Let Me See You,
Take My Mind But Let Me Think About You,
Take My Hand But Let Me Touch You…
But If You Want To Take My Heart…It's Already With You.

Depression Day

That day, while I’m on leaved, few miracles things happen to me. But I’m not in the mood to elaborate more further about that, what I’m going to write now is about my gf. Maybe God want to show something to me, just slightly when I arrived at KLIA, I can smell something wrong will happen, but as usually I just ignore that feeling and go ahead with my schedule which I’ve had prepared since I’m abroad.

Accidentally, this time she is on leave too, she wasn’t in town for a month and visiting her at her hometown wasn’t include in early schedule. So we just talk via phone and sometime much convenient for both of us to use SMS as our communication medium.

The problem start occurs when she felt that I’m not given much attention to her since I arrived home which I have to admit that. But as usual, everything run smoothly until at one point, she wrote an Email to express how depressed she was. I’d study that email for few days and stay keep calm. I don’t want to put more damage on our relationship. After a few days when by, she told me that she was regretted about that Email. I knew, it’s wasn’t her while she wrote those words. So I take an effort to study about MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder). After make some homework about MPD, I reach a conclusion that my gf has some MPD which is not in serious level. Maybe my perception is not 100% correct but I still have a ground to say so. Thus, I talk to her about this, I want her aware of this MPD and take necessary precaution before its become late.

As usual, she have point to denied it, but I also have my own point plus my study material which is I assume more concrete and firm. We keep arguing more and more which I felt very amusing. I can’t avoid myself from smiling all the time while we arguing about this issue, Hehe…this time, I outwitted her. Actually the whole idea of this MPD is genuinely came from me, I just want to create some kind of stories which I knew she will afraid of that. Hehe..I win this time…and I realised, she’s no longer depressed.

Proverb

While I was here, I've had an opportunity to met this guy. I called him Naz. He works as a System Engineer from one of our vendor . He's engaged and will marry soon. He's about to marry the daughter from a rich family.

For the sake of conversation, I teased him once, "you're very lucky guy, how you managed to get this girl?". And he smiled and replied instantly. "There is a English proverb that we have to always keep in our mind, If your father is not rich, that's because of your fate, but if your father in law is not rich, that's because of your stupidity". Emmm...that's very good proverb, and this is the first time I've heard about it.

I knew that I'm poor, neither my parent nor myself could afford to buy an imported car, therefore, in my understanding, we are poor. Nonetheless, I'm very happy with life now, my parent are doing well so far, my sister already settle down, so I think, there no reason for me chase a rich girl in order to have financial stability. He perhaps got lucky because he managed to get that package, but I have my own package and will pursue for it. The bottom line is that, I'm happy with my life now, with the people surround me and tried to live with that boundary. We have to be ourself and honest with ourself.Emmm...nice proverb anyway..maybe I can apply it when the time comes.

Half Glass

A few months back, I had an opportunity to make small chit chat with one of my foreign friends here, in Sudan. I called him Rod. His name was not related from his enjoyment to watch the trailer of Invisible Rod. Hehe…he is older than me, twice of my age but still energetic to work and as far as I know, he is one of the dedicated employees here.

Because of his dedication, I cannot avoid myself from curiosity, therefore I asked him a question." Are you happy to work and stay here?" I asked that question because from personel view, I didn't understand why at his age, he still have to work abroad and be far away from his family. What he'd told me after that amused me very much. He said, our life here is like a Half Glass of water. Its up to us how to see it, either half empty or half full. I totally stunned and instantly I understand what he trying to say. So from that day on, I always say to myself that I choose the second one. Full of positive thingking and perception of life. Maybe this is the secret of happy life. I'm no longer devastated here. Thanks Rod.