16 Years has passed and more to go..

 

After sixteen years, this was the very first time that I felt I was shaking, confused, state of uncertain. I wanna shout a loud. Apparently, I'm attracted to someone which I couldn’t resist. Sleepless at night has become common to me nowadays. I keep searching for the correct ground, basis, and explanation for where this feeling is coming from.

The big question is, WHY NOW? Why I'm tested in such a situation? What is the push and pulling factor attributed to these feelings?

I knew the stake here was huge, literally very huge if I was unable to contain the situation correctly.

I’m in a deep dilemma. This isn’t right and morally wrong. Listed below are some of the AOC and challenges that I might face in the coming days. 

List of Challenges:-

1. Polarization and Cultural Identity.

2. Age gap and value background.

3. Economic and Education.

As a disclaimer and sincere confession, I have neither intention of becoming an unfaithful husband nor an irresponsible father. Don't start, don't even dare to try, you will burn down all the trust and memories that have been built for such a period of time. 

Proverbs from the eldest, "A woman's loyalty is tested when her man has nothing. While a man is tested when he has everything". But I literally don't have everything.